Two Poems

almost chronology of sex transition(s)ings

once a stiletto stitched a stab wound
on the underside of my heart
when it finally grew hair again, no one could see the scar

fixed against a vagina is another vagina or a vagina that
transformed into an non-vagina
it’s all called sex, or something like it

shave, like a trail or a bush or mouth
what’s inside dance & flies with unicorn pastel smudges
dive a finger, polychromatic drippings

:: tricks of bedtime stories twist around nipples
and leave them all suckling, dirty little pigs ::

it is the curve of my hip that grows the tree beneath me
heavy with tendrils
it goes in for the kill, buries yesterdays and tomorrows

tender grass, greasy palms
we have all be victims
of lawn fawning & fondling

:: history & herstory copulated by some giant thing
without a name, but with hook ::

:: engaging legs, swirmy worms of youthful sparkle
we were all once virgins, we were all once women ::

@ all those fucks

in the middle of a poem, you kiss me
& i could almost scratch your face away
no one considers the writer’s space anymore
@ the computer is so misinterpreted

violated in the shower because you won’t
let me be private, alone, me/i
your naked body enters, uninvited
i hide under the stream/bury another lost t/y/ear

in the middle of the night, you suffocate me
& I –maddened, looking for the sleep i lost

in the mirror, @ myself, i huddle & hunch
become a package of something that has no name
the holepuncher, the fleshfuck, the pilecuddle

once, i was a poet –tongue-kissed words and not boyz
once, i was a non-woman, a thing that still needed to grow

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jacklyn janeksela is a wolf and a raven, a cluster of stars, & a direct descent of the divine feminine. jacklyn janeksela can be found at Thought Catalog, Luna Luna Magazine, Talking Book, Three Point Press, DumDum Magazine, Visceral Brooklyn, Anti-Heroin Chic, Public Pool, Reality Hands, Mannequin Haus, Velvet-Tail, Requited Journal, The Feminist Wire, Word For/Word, Literary Orphans, and Lavender Review. she is in a post-punk band called the velblouds. her first book, fitting a witch//hexing the stitch, will be born in 2017 (The Operating System). she is an energy. find her @hermetic hare for herbal astrological readings.